In 2009 I wrote the following poem about a dear friend of mine and her tendency to hold everyone at a distance, even when she was desperately hurting and needing the love of others.
From Walls to Curtains
Those walls of yours so thick, so high
Built slowly through the years.
They block you in and block me out
Protecting you from all you fear.
Who were the builders of those walls of yours,
made of pain and loss?
The stories some have been told to me
In times of simple sharing.
You were given to me many years ago
Handed to me for loving.
Patient and gentle I have been,
waiting and ever watching.
Fresh wounds are now upon your heart
Still tender to the touch.
I shared the pain and walked with you
As your heart was breaking.
Dear friend, as now you are known
Loved by much and many.
Tear down those walls that hide you there,
Replace them with a curtain.
Pull back the veil, let healing in
The balm of One so sweet.
His gentle touch has been in my hand
His love, that fills my heart.
~ ~ ~
The journey of the last three years has been one filled with both pain and beauty. She has been given many gifts that cannot be purchased with any amount of money. She has found rich friendships, support and love in places she never expected to find it. She has received many new insights into who she is as a person. Her spiritual life has gone through a transformation as well, bringing her to places she never would have expected to be, even just three years ago. The walls have come down; some of them brick by brick and others with an earth shattering crash.
At times she looks around herself and all she sees is piles of rubble and destruction; it is easy for her to fall into despair. This morning I reminded her of all the beauty and goodness that has come into her life during these three years of ‘demolition’. As the walls have come down, light as been able to shine into the dark places. New and beautiful things have taken root and begun to grow.
This week, she embarks on another leg of her journey, as she enrolls in a 13 month residential treatment program with the widely acclaimed Teen Challenge program. Putting herself under the authority and confines of their live-in program for such a long period is not an easy thing for her to do. I don’t think it is for anyone.
In these upcoming months, I am anticipating that those things of beauty that have taken root will flourish and grow, until the beautiful new growth covers over all the rubble left from those walls that have tumbled down. I trust that at that time, she will be able to see her own beauty, just as others already do.
The following scripture verses from Paul’s letters to the Philippians and Ephesians express my confidence and prayers for her for the year ahead.
In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. [Philippians 1:6]
And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people,to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
I thank my great God for all the wonderful people that He has granted me the privilege to know and love.